Oh, oh to be

In ecstasy 

Nurses they’re smiling at me 

Oh, oh to be

In ecstasy

I’m shaking as they’re holding me

I remember,

They said they wished to save me,

Send me down,

It’s time to sleep.

Heard her breathing, I heard him moan
She was lingering, her voice on the phone
I loved her then, I love her still, the wickedness, the excess  
-She said-, ”these are the things that they will look for”
-She said-, ”these are the things that we shall endure”  
Off this strength we lived as grotesque
Please say why our strength has weakened?
I loved you then, I love you still, the face of a God won’t fool me again.   

“I’d rather him be dead”, I said
Look at all they’ve hid from me  

And though I’ve surely prayed to wake up one day, redeemed
To wander with my folk has come to be as tormenting as the last words she said that day.

Dressed for rodeo games, dressed for the range
All the months I’ve trained, yet I look strange

The things she could say to make me laugh
Ridden by our memories  
But now I’m alone
With out her It’d just be like lying

“I’d rather him be dead”, I said
Look at all they’ve hid from me  

And though I’ve surely prayed to wake up one day, redeemed
To wander with my folk has come to be as tormenting as the last words she said that day.
Is this a time of refinement?